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Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Once Again. . .

I can't do this! I want to sell our house and all of our stuff, and live littler, if that makes any sense. I want to be home with my baby, and not cringe when she starts crying at 3:30 in the morning. I hate all of our bills and huge house payments! I hate that sometimes it doesn't bother me and I think, this is ok, and then the next day I go to work in tears. I hate not being all motherly, but only wish I could be with her right now. I don't know what I'm doing...but I am venting right now, cuz otherwise I'm going to scream!!! I hate that I have to just go on with life and work and I can't really change everything that is driving me crazy! I hate that stupid people get off easier. Life is so unfair, yet I know I'm lucky and I should be thankful...so just ignore my little rant here.

3 comments:

Sue said...

Hey sweetie,
I know just how you feel especially about the stupid people, but it will get better not easier, just better, I hated leaving Terry at my floks house when we were in Germany and Steve in Korea, but I had to make some money somehow and it sucked, and I was soooooo happy when I could stay home with her when we were at our apts, even though we missed the income and still do, but we made it work. and we had no clue what we were doing when we had Terry, sure I knew how to feed her and change her diaper, but other than that clueless, and she turend out OK a little strange but OK, hang in there
love ya Sue

Steven said...

Just hang in there Sis. Life does suck, but we all make it somehow. Just remember, not only does your daughter love you, but you have the love of a husband and entire family. We will not ignore your rant, that is what we are here for. You will always have a shoulder to cry on when you need it.

KellyBelly said...

Tell me something new! What I mean is you are not alone, I have chanted your rant may times. Just hang in there - I agree it gets better.